Thursday, January 26

thou shalt not let me hear you say life's taking you nowhere, angel

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The dogs got groomed today and are deep in sleep trying to put miles of unconsciousness between them and the trauma.

Oh, surely I kid--

Or, not.

They are always rather plaintive following the biannual ordeal but are even more out of sorts today as they navigate the topsy-turvy office space that is in the midst of a serious overhaul and their keen awareness that I am about to go on a trip.

I am also out of sorts for pretty much all of the above (except I was not subjected to prolonged periods in a cage or being bathed and having my nails clipped by a perfect stranger), as well as being flat out fatigued.

There it is: I'm tired.

I don't want to be tired, I don't like being tired, but that is my state of being so I must face it (preferably into a pile of down sheathed in a silk pillowcase).

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So much good. Grateful for all of it. Trying to regain my balance. Trying to find my center. There have been times in my life when I was super clear, super focused. This is not that time.

I am definitely moving through big change, bigger than I can actually see--- bigger than I can actually understand consciously. The only way I know that all this is happening is because I feel it in my body. Aside from fatigue, which isn't really an emotion (is it?), all the sensation of my life is being experienced on the physical level. Not mentally, not emotionally, not particularly spiritually.

It feels like I am caught up in some kind of big energetic tide--- it doesn't even feel specific to me personally, if that makes any sense.

Either way, as much as I am the world's worst traveler-- I'm looking forward to getting on a plane on Sunday not only to have hours upon uninterrupted hours with my friend who I haven't had a true conversation with in months (and I can see her house from my kitchen window!), but because I am hoping for some perspective.

And, when I come home-- it will be February-- the shortest month of the year!

If you are in need of inspiration, here are some things I enjoyed stumbling across this week:

1.
beware of artists
via yea its pretentious


2. casey roberts

3. just a little nap under a warm tree

4. thou shalt put on thy red shoes and dance the blues

bowie-isms
via jay herself


5. what I am making for dinner tomorrow night, miam miam

love and light sprinkled generously over your sweet head ..

bisous, e

8 comments:

  1. have a wonderful trip! :) I'm sure you saw Jimmy Fallon as Tebowie - here's a link - hope it works...http://www.hulu.com/watch/318731/late-night-with-jimmy-fallon-tebowie
    enjoy..

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  2. Have a safe journey across the pond and here's to hoping you have plenty of time to rest your weary head!

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  3. I hear you my friend...big changes and energetic shifts...I am tired too and I think you've hit the nail on the head as to why. Thank you for that. Have a fabulous trip on the other side of the pond! xoxo

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  4. Have a wonderful trip! Enjoy the feeling of not having to do or finish anything, even if it's just for a moment. :)

    Stephanie
    xox

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  5. Turn and face the change! Awesome. Bowie is the only one I would have had a kid with, back in the days when I wasn't going to have children, before I met Anders. Rowr!

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  6. Oh my love...I so so get this feeling because I am traversing it myself. I am convinced there is some planetary forces in action. I am so happy you will be traveling with Sissy and hopefully it will go smoother than any trip you have had so far experienced, so you may enjoy playing and fun-maybe even some naps!
    I love you

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  7. I am also bone tired. I think for different reasons. Have a wonderful trip. xoxo

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  8. Oh, that Bowie list brought me back!! Resting is good for the soul I feel. I am in favor of naps and think we should all take more of them. I love Etsy for fun art prints- I've had an obsession over there for a couple of years now. :) Enjoy your trip - I too am not a "good" traveler- so I can relate to the upheaval it seems to cause. Yummy tofu recipe- hope it came out well for you!!

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thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me-- I love that you stopped by and hope something I shared was what you needed today. xo, e