Just barely keeping my head above water which is not where I thought I would be by now. Let's not forget -- under that glossy surface are two busy little feet paddling, paddling.
Oh, there it is -- my personal bird trill -- "not enough TIE-TIE-TIME"
I think the issue is that I treat my life like an all-you-can-eat buffet. Yes! I will start with six creative projects please. Oh, yes! I will take a serving of friends coming to visit, just nudge it onto the plate there next to me traveling to spend time with friends. Yes! Let's have a few hot deadlines on top. Wait-- is that a pot of holiday cards and present making? Oh, please ladle a bit of that over top.
How do you say no? How do you find pace within it all?
I ask most sincerely because you are all doing so much more than I am and you make it look easy. Am thinking that if you unwound my DNA (which hello, it's already a rather frayed ribbon, n'est-ce pas?) you would find the strand of energy is missing from the braid.
Because let's look at the facts:
Am I not a hermit? (Indeed, I am).
Do I not work for myself from home? (Why yes, dust bunnies have all been served subpeonas and are eager to testify).
How on earth can I not have time to nap?
Because, dear Santa, that is all I want for Christmas: five days in a row with zero work and long afternoon naps.
In this moment, I am still packed from a sweet jaunt north where I was welcomed into the fold of a dear friend so will just throw my same bag into the back of the car with the dogs and head to Woods Hole where we will catch a ferry to Martha's Vineyard to spend a pre-solstice celebration weekend with friends.
Word is there are some fun Holiday Fairs happening in Edgartown on Saturday so I will bring my camera with me and hope to have something to share with you all.
I know I sound like such a wretch complaining about having a life full of love and joy and sweet friends-- but you will just have to love me anyway.
more soonest -