Dreamy quiet time. My absolute favorite thing. For me, that is morning, early morning. With time enough to light candles, put on gentle music, sit, read, daydream, write until it is light enough to go out for a walk. And then, to come back, dogs happily tired and snoozy, for another round of sitting, dreaming and writing.
In all honesty, there hasn't been much of this favorite activity, of late.
In the small moments where I might have had a pocket of time to sink into some meditation, I had zero energy. No complaints, mind you. I am honored to my core that both the Spring 2013 (during pre-registration! hells bells) and Thea's online workshop sold out. But to imagine I can manage all that along with the other projects and programs calling for my attention and still carve out quiet time is simply not realistic.
And yet, we must.
I appreciated this article that highlights the value and the need for insisting on making the sweet downtime a priority. I like that he calls it 'sacred space' as I have always called that time my "sacred mornings.'
For me the key is not simply having the time carved out, it is also having the body (mental, physical, emotional, spiritual) rested and energized so that I can BE in the sacred space. And what is causing me such ripples of happiness right now is that my energy is so good.
As someone who was born with the chemical make-up of manic-depressive tendencies-- my entire life's pursuit has been to experience a steady, effervescent buoyancy in my body, in my life. Sure, it was quixotic. I pursued it any way. We all need our windmills to chase -- but the great surprise of the breakthrough I shared with you all is that I am in it. I am IN it. Steady, gentle yet vibrant energy.
It is delicious.
Each morning I wake up and check, 'is it still there?', all through the day I keep checking in 'really? I can feel light, relaxed, energized?' My own personal Christmas miracle, I suppose. And even yesterday-- I had gotten very little sleep Monday night due to things that needed getting done with people all over the world who are not on my East Coast clock. (I am a 8 - 10 hour sleeper. Less than 8 hours of sleep and I am no good to anyone). So yesterday was a bit of a test for me on this whole 'new' energy thing.
et voila - I was tired, yes, but the vibration was still there -- and when I went to bed last night (normal time, hallelujah!) I dropped off and woke up clear, strong refreshed. oh god, I know this has to be agony of boring to read about. But I have to share what is thrilling to me and people, this is THRILLING to me.
I feel alive. Just like she sings:
Sending you good good good energies for light and brightness in your day!