Friday, November 1

I'M A GO!

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photo credit:  CHRISTINE CHITNIS

Oh dear lord.  In ten* years of blogging I don't believe I have ever done anything quite as ill-advised as what I have just done.  Not that there has ever been some kind of advisor hanging around in my kitchen giving me blogging advice between mouthfuls of leftover Chinese take-out -- it's not like I have a secret Vizier whispering, "perhaps a few less dog photos" or anything.

As if.

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No-- my patterings here have always been born completely of my own random impulses-- but as impulses go, this one really has me reaching for the reading glasses to peer more closely at the screen to say, THE HELL?  What the hell did I just do?

People, I signed up for NaBloPoMo.  Yes, I did.

Let's just hope week three doesn't have me writing my obituary.
Although, wait-- that could be cool.

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 photo credit:  Bella Cirovic

Of course if I were really cool, I'd be wearing my Fussy t-shirt (you'll have to scroll all the way to the bottom to see it) as I type this to you-- but all my summer clothes are packed away--- I did that big season shift last weekend including changing out the front door screen with the storm window---

I am ready for you, November.

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Here's the thing -- I am going into this blind.  Absolutely blind.  I have exactly no idea what will surface.  A few weeks back, as I sat on a sofa drinking tea with Sas, (so bloody English for a freaking Kiwi and a Yank, but whatever we were in England) and I was describing how the future looked to me right now:  gray, mushy, with lots of fog and more, did I mention gray and much with the mush?

Oddly, it doesn't feel in the least bit frightening.  Not at all.  More like mysterious, unknown.  Completely obscured in mist.  And Miss Smartypants herself says, "oh yeah, you are so imago."  And I was all "I'm a wha-wha?"

IMAGO

It's the time when the caterpillar is no longer a caterpillar but not yet a butterfly.  It is, in a word, mush.  It is the last stage of the metamorphosis and is often called the imaginal stage.

Isn't that AWESOME?  The imaginal stage . . . I love that.  In fact, I love it so much there is a danger I might hang out here for a long, long time just being goop and whiling away the years imagining stuff.  That is kind of my m.o., if you recall . ..

Thus--->  NaBloPoMo.  I need to get that petri dish of jelly shaking.  And I promise you, nothing scares the pants off me more than the commitment to write 30 days in a row, publicly.  I am not someone who plans out my writing or edits it or does anything to protect myself except, um, you know-- not write . . . so there is no doubt in my mind this is gonna force me to be more exposed and dig deeper than I have in terms of blogging.

Can I do it?  Only one way to find out.

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photo on right by Tory Williams

As much as I think I am going to find this hard, frustrating, scary and thump-myself-on-the-head stupid --- I am feeling some excitement.  It reminds me of when I did The Artist's Way for the first time.  So much huge life change came out of that . .. stuff I couldn't ever have predicted or anticipated.  And so-- here goes --

Either there's gonna be a brick wall of support helping me through or I'm gonna be driving head first into said brick wall.

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 photo credit:  Bella Cirovic

Or, I could take a sip of my own pollyanna certified lemonade and imagine an easy passage through, a wander, as it were into new territory that is neither frightening nor difficult -- merely a discovery of new vistas.

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bisous, e

*10<--! ten YEARS, people!  Okay, I lie-- it will BE ten years in March . . but ten sounds so much more impressive than 9 years and 8 months, wouldn't you agree?

23 comments:

  1. loving the imaginal stage…oh yes.
    and i've no doubt you'll rock this NaBloPoMo endeavor ;) what a treat for us readers!

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    1. oh, you make me feel like a superstar!! thank you!!

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  2. I came here first this morning just to see...AND IT'S TRUE! You have made me a happy girl, and I am taking it as my first birthday present! xoxo

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    1. oh ha ha ha!! tell me the actual day of your birth in November and I will DEDICATE that post to you, my sweet friend .. xoox, e

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  3. Oh lordy...I should never have read this. My poor little blog has been languishing for almost a year; I haven't posted in so long. And I've been toying with the idea of starting another blog that's less about the knitting and more about transformation. Perhaps NaBloPoMo will be the *perfect* time to launch it. And to start pulling myself out of the creative mush that I'm in.

    And no worries; you will so rock NaBloPoMo!

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    1. TERRI !! how fortuitous that YOU are here since I am launching with your gorgeous shawl-- as added incentive to you-- I will do a whole post about that shawl (with photos you can finally put on Ravelry) and LINK to your new blog . . . send me the address when it is up! no pressure. . . hee

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  4. My husband did NaBloPoMo a few years ago with his writing class. He chose not to participate in the more public parts of it (just sayin' it's an option). The imago state. I love that state. Truly. All potential. All creativity happens in darkness. Seeds germinate underground. Babies grow in dark wombs. Congratulations. You are all potential. (and it's ridiculously obvious you have so much support) xoxo, Kat

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    1. oh GOD I love the 'ridiculously obvious' !!! especially when I have been bumping around like a freaking Mr. Magoo .. . THANK you, love love bunny!!

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    2. So yeah, a bit bleary eyed this morning and thought you were talking about National Novel Writing Month. (the acronym kept rattling around in my head and I thought 'where does the plo and bo come in??') Which is what my husband did. He doesn't have a blog, and obv. this is about blogging and well, that would be public by default. Oops. Now I know. I stand firmly by all the rest. xoxo

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  5. Yay brave Elizabeth!!! Your posts are a huge inspiration to me (not to put pressure on you..) even if it is just a dog or light photo, it always brightens my day and makes me think and be in the moment. Beautiful pic to start it off too.

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    1. hi Karen!! thank you so much-- that SHAWL in the first photo was knitted for me by Terri Simonds--- I am going to do a (long overdue) post about it this month-- photo taken by Christine Chitnis-- whoops, forgot the credit there-- will add now. BIG love to you!!! thank you for your suppot and interest--- xooxo, e

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  6. I LOOVVEEEE when my favorite bloggers do NaBloPoMo—so glad I/we get thirty straight days of you! And whoa at the synchronicity of imago! You always seem to have/find that magic around you, though. The words, images, scraps of freaking paper in the grass (!) that appear just when you need them. You're a magical, mystical vixen! ;)

    PS. GORGEOUS photos of you!
    PPS. Daisy, that golden girl, nothing tops pictures of her in my favorite thing ever (piles of autumn leaves).

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    1. Girlfriend!!! wow--- I feel like I just got the most GIANT hug of LOVE--- thank you thank you thank you!! you have inspired and encouraged me--- wow. thank you for letting me know my words and images bring good things to you-- that helps me so much to know that-- xoxoox, e

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  7. Love this E.....you put feelings into words so richly I can taste them. So I will come to the table you set daily.

    Love how you leap.

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    1. look at YOU, Miss Poetry--- wow-- love this. THANK you--- love knowing you will be sharing in the journey with me--- xooxox

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  8. First off, I miss you, LOVE... Second, I've never heard of NaBloPoMo. It sounds like a wonderful intention/challenge. I'm definitely considering it for 2014. I be up then.
    Hugs to you Hon! xxO

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    1. I MISS YOU TOO!!!!! thank god for the internetty .. . xoxoox *blowing kisses*

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  9. I decided to go ahead with this, before I even knew ALL my favorite people are doing it to. Maybe I should just sign up for NaBoREADMo instead!! :D

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    1. you ARE !!!????? fabulous !!! so is Jeanine--- it's a REUNION !!!! woot woot woot

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  10. Soooooooo happy you are doing this. I just recently found your blog and have read so many of your archived posts and was so sad when you had not written anymore since the beginning of October. Your words and photos speak to me and I am so looking forward to 30 days of YOU :)

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    1. debbie!!! hello! and wow-- as you were reading back did you discover that I positively adore flattery and kind words?!! ha ha-- kidding (sort of) but seriously I am utterly inspired you are here and hope to bring something good in one of these days .. I've got 30, right? ONE of them has to be a base hit . . . no? ox, e

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  11. Lots of dog photos- love them!! I have never heard of what you've signed up for...gosh, maybe I should try? I dunno... I'm moving, there's a dissertation and such, but it sounds like fun/discipline. I tend to avoid the latter at times. ;P I'll be reading, though and enjoying!!

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    1. a dissertation?!! holy mama--- THAT is so impressive. I trust it is a subject you are passionate about as how else to produce a DISSERTATIOn *mind boggles* sending you loads of love lovely Eileen .. xoox, e

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thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me-- I love that you stopped by and hope something I shared was what you needed today. xo, e