Thursday, April 17

a most excellent diagnosis

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Let's not hold our breath, shall we-- but, in the ever unchanging saga of healing that small intestine/spleen issue that has been dogging me for lo, these four years--- we have got a new trend happening-- one that might mean at some point in the future I could be a normal human being again.

Of course, by new trend I mean one of those two steps forward, one step back life cha-chas where I am starting to feel incrementally better and it's due to a weekly visit to a most splendid acupuncturist. Miraculous, really.

I found her thanks to a referral from a guy at the dog park-- yes!  My entire world begins and ends at the dog park, or so it could appear.  Anyway--- I just had a session with her tonight and she was talking while peppering my bod with those steel pins and I said something (which I don't remember) and she replied (which I am going to do my damnedest to never forget) "that's because you are so finely calibrated."

FINELY CALIBRATED, people.

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Do you have any idea how much I love that description?  I have been called many things in this lifetime including, but not limited to: intense, dramatic, highly charged, mercurial, high-strung and a 'constitution like a butterfly'--- but never, never-- has anyone said that I am finely calibrated.

You think I am kidding but I think that would be a mighty fine line for a tombstone.


Here lies Elizabeth
sure she could be a royal pain in the ass
but hell if she wasn't finely calibrated


So-- there's an update for you.  Acupuncture.  New personal description. What else is going on in my life that has been preventing me from chatting with you more frequently over the garden fence while we hang laundry?

Well, for one-- I am teaching.  And, given that I am finely calibrated <---! this means the little bit of extra energy I would normally have to share thoughts and reflections here with you is not available to me.

For two, -- um, no.  I think that's it.  I think once the class wraps up-- I will be back here in a more normal way.

Things I am into right now (besides my lifelong quest to reach enlightenment, obvs):


paintOh, and as a result of one of the class discussions -- the weekend before last I did a massive make-over in my apartment and switched bedrooms.

Where I now sleep was formerly the guest room and vice versa.  I absolutely love the change-- the colors and layout are entirely different.

I painted one wall this fabulous deep almost black marine blue-- wait, I can show you. (don't you love technology)

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It's Benjamin Moore, Evening Sky and I freaking LOVE it. My niece Lauren who is a natural born interior decorator and works at West Elm coached me from afar and we went for a boho moroccan feel that is still all me, so yes -- lots of white and a variation on twinkle lights .. . I'm still working on it. There's gonna be a new rug and and night table one of these fine days, but I'm not in any crazy rush. Such a small change in so many ways.

And yet, it has made a huge change in my life, though-- who knew?

The light through those windows is totally different and that is rocking my world as we head into the season of longer days.

Of course the BIGGEST change (and what kind of promoted it all) is that the dogs are no longer allowed on my bed.  I know, right?  Sacrilege.  Alas, it was time.  In fact, I earned my platinum Pollyanna card two weeks ago today at about 3:15 am when without the slightest warning (and I emphasize that because I am very sensitive, indeed some would say finely calibrated, and will always wake up if they need to go out in the middle of the night) Oliver came up to me and vomited directly on the pillow where my face was in restful slumber.

And by vomit-- I mean everywhere and all the way down to the mattress.  Oh, and the only paper towels in the house were on a to-do list that said "buy paper towels."  Yeah.

But here's why my Pollyanna platinum card arrived the next day:  in the very moment I was cleaning up that mess and washing sheets in the tub etc, etc-- my mind was light and clear: no more dogs in the bed.  And?  Let's change it up and move to another room-- so you see?

Lemonade for everyone!  (Well, except for the dogs who are not so very happy with the new sleeping situation-- but they have a beautiful and comfortable sleep situation-- it's just not with me).

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DAISY: Completely unfair. I should not be penalized for the actions of that old dog.
ME:  Sorry kid.  House rules and all that.  One law for all dogs.

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bisous, e

29 comments:

  1. I love the color and the life of this post! I am considering banning my sweet dog from my bed- this sort of thing happened to me before, but it was from the other end of that lovely dog and it went all around me as I slept in a circle. Yeah, she's really precise with an upset tummy. So, I am with you and it is time!! Providence is so gorgeous in the spring (and, well, the winter too)- gotta get there again one day. I love how changing rooms can change your perspective. And- I want you to know- I keep focusing on light and beauty- it is a mantra of mine and a gift from you. xoxo

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    1. any time you want to come to providence-- let me know!! I love finding new reasons to walk about--- and Ohhhhh a focus on light and beauty!!!!! You are in for SUCH good things coming to you as the MORE you keep that in your vision the MORE it grows!!

      and yeah, dogs---- am quite enjoying not being pushed out of my own damn bed any more by their sprawl . . :)

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  2. It's absolutely amazing - the power and energy of words and color especially to those of us "so finely calibrated" lol - yes I am sharing in your description/state of mind thank you for this. How lovely to work with someone who understands the "art of healing" on so many levels. We are indeed blessed to be living in this era. A few hundred years back - your acupuncturist and all of us would have been labeled and punished for being "witches." So much better this way. Thank you for sharing all of the sensitive points of your journey - light and shadow - and with such great humor. It helps the rest of us FCS (finely calibrated souls) to carry on. I applaud your decision to make the change with the dogs. The present celestial energy is working for these kind of lifestyle decisions. Love your potted garden. Andrea, PS please excuse typos - I have a finely tuned and ancient (3yr old) iPad that will not allow me to scroll and correct. Sigh...

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    1. Hi Andrea--- omg-- my NEW tribe: FCS !!! LOVE that so much-- love.

      and oh yes, indeed-- we are mighty blessed to be living in this era-- so many resources and enlightened energies around us indeed!! I kinda thought these big changes might be in alignment with the planets so good to know!! xoxo

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  3. No dogs on the bed. Yes. After that episode, I don't blame you! I bet you sleep better too. Franklin sleeps with Sarah most of the time, but sometimes he will sleep with me. I always sleep better without him, but he is so cuddly--I make the sacrifice! You are not only TEACHING dear, you are changing lives...TRANSFORMING all of us. It is a gift that you have. Seriously. Such a blessing that I am with you there. xoxoxo

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    1. OH! I forgot to say that I am so, so happy that you are starting to feel better. I will send healing thoughts your way! I had no idea you were having such problems. And, I hope they go away for good!!

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    2. absolutely! once upon a time I couldn't sleep without them-- but that was mostly Henry who was a chief snuggler-- finely calibrated as he was-- ha. I do make a point to snuggle them extra morning and night-- but sleep is now all mine-- booyah! and THANKs for the teaching props-- how much do I LOVE that we are in class together?!!! love love love

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  4. YIKES! So sorry to hear about that unpleasantness (was it something he ate...?), but I find your reaction totally inspiring. xoxox

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    1. who ever knows-- he is old--- the bizarre thing (that turned out to be the agent of blessed change) was that he vomited on my PILLOW -- with no warning-- that is just not normal behavior, ever-- so there you have it.

      and yes--- bring on the ENLIGHTEMENT!!! ha hahaahha

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  5. Finely calibrated. Yes... Yes!!!
    The new room is like no other I've seen,
    and I am smitten with the way the styling came together.
    Happy Weekend, love. xo

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    1. awwwww!!! you're just wicked biased (in my favor) but I DO love that!!!! xooxoxoxo

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  6. I cannot BELIEVE he vomited ON YOUR FACE. Good lord.

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    1. well, to be fair, directly NEXT to my face . .. but that is splitting hairs, methinks.

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  7. finely calibrated…i love the sound of that.
    hooray for a little shifting of rooms and sleeping places {and that bold, gorgeous blue}. lemonade for all!
    xo

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    1. so glad you love that blue- me tooo totally 6th chakra energy all the way! XOXO

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    2. oh, i've been working with the blues in subtle ways!
      here's to our voices, my dear...

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  8. oh!!!! I'm SO excited that you've started acupuncture. I've been going for regular acupuncture for a little more than a year and I LOVE it! Talk about finely calibrated...I just feel SO much better.

    Love the bedroom switch up! I have a two bedroom home also and have thought about that too! You are such an inspiration.

    xoxo

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    1. XOXOXOXOXXO yes yes, I am thinking acupuncture is a new way of life for this finely calibrated body!

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  9. I love the sound of being finely calibrated!! So glad you are starting to feel relief from your symptoms. I also love when you share books you are reading, since I am always looking for guidebooks on this amazing spiritual journey we are all on. Thanks for another lovely post (except of course for the vomiting dog - but... been there, done that :)

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    1. yes-- a friend turned me on to the Anatomy of Desire and I have gone back to it again and again--- really clear, really good-- I'd be interested to know how you experience it! xooxoxox

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    2. Is there one (or more) books that were really helpful in understanding that you would recommend? I would love any recommendations you are willing to offer. Thanks! Hope you are having a lovely weekend.

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    3. My email is bssmet@comcast.net if it's easier to reply thru email.

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  11. That blue. I have my eye on a similarly deep blue, but one with a bit more green in it, and now I'm determined to quit hesitating! Also, I am taking your post as a reminder to me to move forward with my own acupuncture plans (I'm all about thinking about doing things, not so good on the follow through--I'm also not sure if I'm finely calibrated, though I'd love to be). I'd love to ask you details about your diagnosis/treatment/etc some time. I was just finally officially diagnosed with SIBO this month. Do you mind if I ask what your email address is?

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    1. hi Liz! always -- anytime-- elizabeth AT squamartworkshops DOT com-- happy to share anything that might help!! XOXOXO

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  12. So glad to hear that the acupuncture is healing you! Sage just started going too...keeping our fingers crossed it has an effect on his weekly migraines!!

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    1. I was wondering about Sage--- YAY-- I am SUCH a believer in acupuncture but it does help to find the RIGHT person .. . xxo, e

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  13. Well first off, sorry about the dog vomit situation. SO not what you want to wake up to in the middle of the night..

    My cat sleeps with me as well, and I've been told multiple times not to let him do that because of my back issues, but he's just so cute and cuddly, I can't. Apparently I have no backbone when it comes to him.. LOL

    That said, I love moving rooms or moving furniture around. Something about it just brings in totally new energy. I love that bold color on the wall as well; don't you just love how something so small can totally change how you feel?

    I'm in the middle of (kindof) the same thing at the moment. I'll be leaving my current apt when my lease is up at the end of August, and moving into a place that will be awesome but is about half the size of my current place. Don't get me wrong -- I don't look at it as a sacrifice, but rather an opportunity to downsize the physical and expand into the spiritual or psyche.

    That said, I am needing to downsize the physical. It all comes at a good time. I've been needing to do a complete redesign of my space for awhile, and this gives me the opportunity to do that, and have furniture and furnishings I love rather than ones I just somehow ended up with.

    Congrats on the acupuncture; I hope it continues to bring you lots of healing <3

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    1. ooh wow! sounds like you have some big wonderful change afoot!--- loved the backpain vs no back bone!! ha!

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thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me-- I love that you stopped by and hope something I shared was what you needed today. xo, e