Tuesday, July 15

tears and fears and feeling proud :: it's life's illusions I recall

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It's not often that I wish I'd paid closer attention in my high school physics class.

And yet, on a morning when the air is so thick and muggy that I have the car's A/C running and the itty-bit-but-just-enough stream of raindrops require some windshield wiper action but I still can't see --- am thinking a more comprehensive understanding of glass properties i.e. the hot to cold ratio for clarity might serve me well.

Possibly.

It can also be fun to drift about in a soft fog-- and yes, I am prone to such behavior, but while driving a car? Probably not recommended.

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birthday girl is on the left in first photo, on right in second

This weekend I drove north to my hometown to celebrate my niece's 30th birthday. We had nothing but blue skies and sunshine; nothing to cloud my vision.  Well, unless you count tears-- but who in this house counts tears?

Ollie and Daisy are taking the Fifth it seems and have no reply for me.

A better representation of how it looked (and felt)

Yes, I call her my baby girl.  No, she is not my child -- I was there from the moment she was born and she changed my life for the better-- and so she will always be my baby girl.

On Sunday, we went over to Boston College and walked the labyrinth which was so fabulous. A replica of the labyrinth at Chartres!  Who knew? Well, aside from my sister who brought us there . .

Proof yet again, there are things right around the corner for you to discover -- right now!

Two of my favorite moments of the weekend:

one, on Saturday, I came into the sunroom where my brother was reading. I had a book in my hand and was looking for a quiet place to read.  We exchanged hellos-- and then both of us dropped into our own reading worlds.  It was so lovely to be reading in the same space with him.  I know that must sound utterly weird.  I never see him-- why wouldn't we be having a big conversation?  But this was far more connected, for me-- anyway, to share sacred space.

two, similar to the first -- I came down Sunday morning with my book.  Got a coffee and headed out into the back yard where my sister, brother-in-law, and my niece's friend (in the photo above, who is like a niece to me) were all on the patio reading.  I joined them.

There was a a breeze, once in a while you'd hear a car go down the street and birdsong-- but other than that-- the quiet of reading in a circle of kindred-- the beauty of home.

Sacrilege! (I took a selfie on the path)

bisous, e




13 comments:

  1. There is something very special about reading in the same room as a sibling

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  2. I completely agree...reading in the same space is magic. We had "book club" when the kids were little, and now it happens spontaneously. I LOVE IT. Love to you as well...xoxoxo

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    1. book club with the kids-- you are the coolest-- so fun! hope your summer is getting YOU some loose and easy space in your days. . . xoxooxox

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  3. Oh, your weekend sounds like bliss! Reading with people in companionable silence...I'm so envious!

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    1. 'companionable silence' ! yes-- love that expression . . . thanks for sharing it xo

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  4. after reading this, i am left with...beautiful and quiet.

    such a gift to read with others in a space like that.

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    1. ohh so glad-- was feeling like I was so weird and now I see, yet again-- there are others like me! woot!!

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  5. Sigh. Am I a nerd? I almost teared up at the title of your post....of course I recognize it and it is one more sign that I always come to the right place and your blog is home. I work with a fantastic health coach and she's mentioned more than once that it is possible to find your "people" on-line...and it is OK if that is where they are. I never quite got that, but wow...she was so right. When I first started reading your blog, I felt a little intimidated...you share so much of what I want to feel/be/do for myself. I, in case you haven't noticed, am pretty insecure. However, one thing I sense about you is that you are real. One thing I know about myself is that I am real too....it is one thing I am certain of, so it seems like such a good starting place and I just realized all of this now! I wrote before about feeling "in" and to come here and see a post with words I know the tune to? You cannot imagine. Love. love. love. love.

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    1. oh wow! well, welcome-- first of all and I do understand this-- I really do. I started blogging SO long ago--- my old blog was called bluepoppy (http://bluepoppy.omworks.com) and it never occurred to me when I began that I would make such soul connections with people all over the world-- but I have! it really does happen and I hope you meet many more people that help you to feel welcome and grounded!! xoxoxo, e

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    2. also-- do you still live in Wisconsin? I went to college in Appleton . . . xo

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  6. I"m go glad you had so much fun with your family. I think it's nice sometimes to be able to just 'be" and not have to be talking or 'doing' something, but rather just enjoy the company. And I know this has absolutely nothing to do with your post, but those are really cute sandals ;)

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  7. nice post & groovy sandals. xo

    Diane

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thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me-- I love that you stopped by and hope something I shared was what you needed today. xo, e