Above is my first try at embroidery that I played around with at Squam Studio in October. Thanks to Tracey for being my guide - I got to experiment with something I have always wanted to do with no pressure for it to be good, or right or anywhere near planet Perfect.
I just had fun.
It was play just for play and I can't honestly tell you how long it took for me to do this because when I was doing it, my mind had dropped off into that happy no-time, no-space place.
Having fun making something I will never use, never give away as a gift, never sell and never do anything with - came to mind a few hours ago when I watched this video below:
Really good stuff. Not that I don't know this already-- the whole, gotta go within to connect with YOU and then you will feel better thing? I had just shared that myself last week. But the thing is, as anyone who has ever faced changing a bad habit or addiction can tell you -- KNOWING something intellectually (such as, "I really shouldn't be eating an entire tray of brownies since it will make me feel sick and is not in alignment with my true goals") has little to no bearing on whether or not you can actually do what your mind wants you to do.
Your sub-conscious programs will TRUMP your intellect every. single. time.
If on a sub-conscious level, you believe that eating brownies is going to COMFORT you, you will eat them.
There is only one source of genuine comfort - and that is love. However, if you do not love yourself, you are in kind of a bind -- as to make true change happen, you have to begin with offering yourself love and compassion. (GREAT resource here on this idea).
Not someone else, yourself.
And, if offering yourself love and compassion seems impossible - because really, how totally not perfect are you<--- right? -- then you need to begin there and examine why it is that for the love to matter to you, it has to come from someone else.
We just are not taught to love ourselves unconditionally. Hence, the horrors of the world. Because when you DO love yourself, you simply cannot be unkind or lacking in compassion for another. It's simply not possible.
One of my most favorite ever Byron Katie videos is below. It really shows how twisted our minds can get and how to meet our minds with love, gentleness and compassion for how they got mixed up.
Tomorrow I end this blogging adventure. It's been awesome and I have LOVED reconnecting with so many of you.
If you have questions for me that you'd like me to answer-- put them in the comments and I will do my best.
Sending you BIG love!!!