Thursday, September 1

be the temple of your heart

Dear Mindy,

I am both excited and nervous about this 30-day project I created for myself on. an. impulse. *

Note that I did not say I am surprised. *sigh*

After living with myself this long I have given up trying to rein in my spontaneous nature. Sometimes the impulse results in a painful faceplant, more often it simply eats up time in my schedule that I had previously been thinking would allow me some down time-- but once in a while -- a rare while-- the frog surfaces from the bottom of the well and offers me the golden ball I had lost.

(of course, as we all know, accepting the help of the frog  takes me down a whole nother path of bumps and twists and revelations but ultimately lands me on sacred ground so, for me, the golden ball is a good thing).

Actually, everything is a good thing.

That's kind of where I am right now.

Put this song on your ipod if you want to hear what I am listening to as I type to you.

This morning -- this first day of September -- I am writing to you from Seven Oaks retreat center in Madison VA.  As you know, I am here with 30 other women for a week long retreat called Into the Mystic.

This place has utterly and completely rocked my world. It is sacred ground. The energies here are so sweet, so clear, so nurturing, so healing--- I have a thousand and one moments to share with you when we next hang out in 3D, but for now let me tell you of the river.

The RIVER.



Mindy, I have never lay back in the heart of a river and let her flow over me.

Until this week.

I have never had the softness of an inner tube under my limbs to allow me to float and gently turn as I float down the river. A body of water so clear every stone and leaf on the bottom can be observed from above.

Shallow and wide -- she is pure ease, joy and nurturance. I have never been held by the river goddess. But that is precisely how I began my day on Sunday -- my heart tipped to the blue sky that was empty of clouds, the sun powerfully present and creating the most delicious contrast to the cool, cool water.

Whatever I just wrote above cannot even being to describe the transformation I experienced in the river --  dipping my head back again and again -- the soft currents rolling over me-- until I ended in a small circle of inner tubes with 3 other women also drifting on the surface of this magical being.

And we talked. Shared stories.

When I clambered back up the steps to the soft ground to follow the path back to my cottage, I had no idea what time or even what day it was. I was as deeply in the present moment as I have ever been.

This whole week has been extraordinary. To say I have been drenched in light doesn't even begin to capture it.

Words are not for this.



And yet, when I came to dinner that night-- that Sunday night that feels like a lifetime ago now -- walking across the soft grass of the meadow that is the great, open space all the buildings encircle -- I was met by a woman who had been with me on the river.

She handed me a poem that had poured out of her in response to our time there.

How's that for spontaneity? Inspiration? Stepping into flow?

Again, words are not for this.

And yet, I will share with you Anne-Marie's poem, written 8.28.16.

River Haiku

Honor the Sabbath
Take yourself to the River
And baptize your soul

Tubing on River
Laughing with sweet sister friend
My heart opens wide

Sun soft on my skin
The voices of rock sky tree
speaking to my heart

The heart of water 
loves to flow. Listen as she
sings your spirit home.


more tomorrow . . 

bisous, Elizabeth

*For anyone joining this adventure -- earlier this week I happened on Mindy's post where she honored me to my core -- sharing that she reads my blog (my long, long neglected blog) and it inspired me to promise that for one full month -- 30 days of September-- I would write her a letter each, and every day. Let's see how I do . . . :)

10 comments:

  1. don't be nervous, beautiful. there is no expectation of perfection... ever! and this gift you've given me is already working through me in such significant ways. so much allowing, always, from you. you ARE the river. I see it so clearly in this post, in the light, in your words. the flow is just a part of who you are... what has always carried me into softness and grace by coming here. I love you. and our friendship. and that we get to share this sacred space together for a little while. it's the most extraordinary heart medicine. and I can't wait to hear all the stories when you get home!!!

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  2. Mmm Mmm Mmm.
    I have been held by the river goddess and I feel all of this you share so deeply.
    Hello, love. Hello.
    xo

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    1. oh, then you KNOW-- the river goddess-- how grateful I am to know her, to have met--- I am headed back this afternoon--- soaking in every moment I can as long as I am here in this beautiful part of the world . . XOXXOOX SMOOCH to you BELLA BELLA!! XXO

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  3. I have just returned from Mindy's blog thanking her for working her magic on you. I am so grateful that you will be posting this month. I have missed you! This is a blessing. A gift.

    A tube + A river = Bliss We went tubing in early August, but I loved revisiting the gentle current from your words. This is possibly a good metaphor for life? Hmmm.

    xoxooxo

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  4. I tried to comment before, but the powers that be wouldn't let me. I am trying again.

    I have just returned from Mindy's blog thanking her for working her magic on you. I am so grateful that you will be posting this month. I have missed you! This is a blessing. A gift.

    A tube + A river = Bliss We went tubing in early August, but I loved revisiting the gentle current from your words. This is possibly a good metaphor for life? Hmmm.

    xoxooxo

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  5. I too, am happy to read you here again. wisdom of your words reaches far and wide and across the globe. blessings, elizabeth.

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  6. OH! Why didn't this show up on my feed! Thank goodness Megsie is on top of things! How lovely to see you writing here again :)

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thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me-- I love that you stopped by and hope something I shared was what you needed today. xo, e